To FeatherFlocks
(A Letter)
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven;
a time to be born, a time to die...
a time to weep and a time to laugh...
a time to embrace and a time to refrain...
a time to keep a time to throw away...
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
(Taken from the book of Eccletiates 3, A Time for Everything, verses 2,4,5,6 and 11)
From Me,
A time for everything...at last...probably, hopefully, surely, the time has come for us all to meet.
Sometimes I wonder how has time passed for us? And how has time made us?
Equipped us, changed us, transformed us, embraced us?
Time is all we are waiting for. Time is all that we are looking for. Time to pray. Time to love. Time to obey. Time to be together. Time to meet.
The Bible said that He, our God has made everything beautiful in its time.
With faith we believe. With faith, we wait.
Althought somewhere somehow, we lost our way. Somewhere somehow, we made our own timing, but again, God brought us back according to His time.
I never know how or when we will meet. I never know or pray with certainty that I want us to meet at this and that specific location. Although many times, I had to confessed, I wonder what will happen when we meet.
How will I and you react? How will I responded to the sounds of all of you calling my name. And how will I be when we meet. But again and again, I think when we meet, when I think about the time we will meet, I think all these thoughts are unneccessary.
I think all these thoughts are secondary.
With all my heart I pray that we are all ready.
With all my heart I pray that you and I, we are in faith when we meet.
Somewhere in time, I think I saw a glimpse of you and me talking, looking at one another.
Somewhere in time I think I saw you.
I'm glad.
I'm contented.
And I am comforted to know that it will be at the right time and the appointed place we will meet.
In fact, despite communicating through visions, you and me, and in the vision we are best friends and I've loved you. Always have been. Recently when we meet again, for the seemingly countless of time, yet in that perfect moment, it seems like the first time again, I love you more than I've loved you.
Maybe because thats you.
Not that previously it was not you. Except that this time, it is really you.
The redeeemed you. Whom I love and who by faith we are spiritually attached and by faith you've loved me too.
We are a fellowship after all.
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I never know how much I miss you.
Yet again and again as you appear before me, I miss you.
Again.
And again.
Although at times I feel like I dont want to be around you. Or I dont want you to be around me. I want you to stand on your own guard. Be independent. Be your own tree and branch out to the people around you. Yet again, each time I see you, I want you.
We are a fellowship after all.
What is a fellowship without the fellows?
A time will come for us to meet.
A time will come for us to reach out to one another with Godly love and pray and care and live in harmony with one another.
A time will come when we will meet and cry tears of joy.
A time will come when we will meet and have a fellowship.
Someday, a time will arrive for us to meet our brother whom we lost along the way.
A brother so dear to us, who had made his way home far before we all know it.
Do you remember, Orlie-andro, about the time you and I talked about death?
I remember you questioned me what will happen when we die?
Will we really meet in heaven?
And I remember I told you that as surely as we are together in faith and believing in the same way, truth and life, which is Jesus Christ, we will see each other again in heaven.
And then you go on and asked me if I am ever so ready to die should God called me home.
And I told you that "Yes I am. (for we belong in heaven and not on earth)"
The next moment you looked at me with that puppy dog eyes of yours sadly, and remained quiet.
Well, Orlie-andro, you know what, maybe I should take back those words. Not that I am losing my faith or I am fearful of death. But... I saw what death can caused us.
What death had done to us. The day Cory died. and I think when I looked at you (all of you, my dear brothers and sisters in Christ), I wonder if I really want to leave you so easily?
And I, as much as I anticipated to be part of the real stewardship in heaven, I...I think I need some more time to be with you all.
I think I...although heaven is a lovely place and I longed to be part of them, but...seeing you, and remembering upon the time we are still waiting to meet. To reunite. To embrace. To weep and laugh together, I...
I think I...love to stay a little longer.
Thank you Orlie-andro for being such a great company all these while. Your question is precious.
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Moving on, with this thought in mind, I hope to you,
who has been just like me, who had been living in the world so ungracious around you and been thinking to leave earth so soon; for the day you were born, you were despised and in your youth, the love of your life been robbed out of you, and you...alone and burdened, wished with all your heart never to be born --
To you-- my precious gift, my Little Lamb, my answered prayer, I pray with all my heart that you've seen what grace had God given to you and with that grace that He had showered in your life, learn to appreciate life the way it should be.
Indeed, sometimes it is better never to be born than to be and faced the uncertainties in life.
All the griefs and sorrows. All the things that seemed to break you apart.
But my little one, have faith, for God is with you.
You once lived in the world so dark, no one is there to show you the way to the light, but now you are in His light. We are in His light together. Along with the rest of our brothers and sisters who were once lost and burdened. Indeed, who has never been burdened?
I believe you've found love blooming within you once again.
Not that kind of worldly love, but true love, from God.
And I believe that loneliness has for the past two years departed from you as you joined in this fellowship of Christ. (Except that many times you prefer your old life and refused to be imparted as one of us, a bad habit on your part).
Anyway, you've been home, Freak.
(Remain home where Sunshine can always find you) and stop thinking about dying.
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To my Little Miss Sunshine (not to be confused with Freak's Sunshine -- but you, yourself are a real Sunshine indeed)
Nice to meet you Missy.
There has never been a girlfriend to me like yourself.
You are my sister, my friend, my girlfriend.
You are an inspiration yourself and if you ever wonder if there is anyone ever admire you, well, besides your good gentleman, its gonna be me.
You and I... we met in the most unexpected occassion ever. We came from a very different background and occupation, race and religion. But thanks to be to God, for His abounding love and mercy, we are made 'as one' (one in faith, one in love and believe and values)
Ain't that amazing?
Your son is my son and soon, my beloved child will be yours too.
And soon we will meet. I wonder what kinda calls are we going to shout out?
Is it gonna be a shriek? An exclaimation of joy? A big bear hug filled with tears and emotional expressions burst out all together? I dont know.
I cant say for sure, but as surely as I love you as my family, I will love to meet you for real.
Thank you for paying a visit that night. It was an amazing night.
Truly you are a great friend. xoxo.
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To you whom I am bonded to,
How in the world do we survive this far? We will never will if it is not because of God's love that binds us together.
A time will come. A time will surely come,
for revelation awaits on an appointed time.
Though it lingers, wait on it.
It will certainly come and will not delay. (Habakuk 2:3, with addition added)
Your conviction of certainty on the time of God had been such a great comfort to me, and though at times I am in doubts, I am assurred. Praise the Lord!
It's been a helter skelter years for you and me. Really crazy indeed. But love conquers all.
True love endures and it conquers all uncertainties. Along with God.
A time will come where I will no longer see you in dreams and visions.
A time will come for us to meet and be united.
It's been great to see you growing in faith and conviction with God.
Pray it will last forever.
Together let us turn our eyes upon Jesus.
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To the rest of you whom I am about to meet.
Till we meet again, continue to stay close with God.
Love,
Me
